The elephant in the room

Oh, JB.

It is too frustrating. We are so odd. I find it strangely comforting that we've talked about it now - finally - but how very, very odd.

"I should be in love with you but I'm not. I like you a lot. My inner voice is saying I should be. I wish I was, more than anything."

I hear you. I feel exactly the same. Maybe some day.

(I find it funny that I have never mentioned any of this before. Liv doesn't know about it. Maybe I was keeping it secret and just for me. Who knows.)

I think I like this one :)

He's different. A bit reserved. He has dreads, which I usually dislike, but don't mind on him. And I actively enjoy the filthy text messages he sends me, which is unheard of.

He makes me laugh. He likes the same films. He doesn't put up with my potential for clingyness, which is a good thing! My friends seem to like him, especially Liv and Jessee.

Hmmmm.

Spring has most definitely sprung.

Spring is here! Time for some more 'future house' photos

Things are amazing.

:D

What a lovely weekend. Many high points, but two stand out.

On Saturday night I co-hosted an awesome, awesome party (besides some unpleasantness I was thankfully not witness to) but during said party I got my two best friends back. Liv and I have been great for ages, but I think the talk we had finally cemented us as 'okay' again. More than okay. Amazing :) And as for Jessee. We're finally okay, too. We needed to end the physical nature of our relationship once and for all and it happened on Saturday night. A sober conversation between he and I is a rare thing, but the stars aligned that night.

I love you both so very much :)

One thing I have found living with Bron is that we have *exactly* the same taste in design.

Wiseausaurus!

The loveliest cake in the world.

Wow.

This weekend has been interesting. It's left me with a lot to think about. I've never actually been called out on or lectured on my relationship with Jessee, but I was on Saturday. I don't think it's right that a prospective relationship with someone else should be the excuse for things between Jessee and I to cease, but it may have to be. I can't seem to control myself with him. Lame, I know, and totally not an excuse.

Other than the sexual side of things, he's one of only a very small number of people I would seriously kill for if need be, and really the only one I know would do the same for me. I do trust him completely. In a way I kind of mourn losing that side of things with him if I get into a relationship.

Could I be any more screwed up?