PostSecret gets it sometimes.

Oh jeez

How things just turn on their head.

Travel brain

I've been thinking about Boston over the last few days. How I'd love to go back! This is partly for naughty, naughty reasons which can never be fulfilled, of course. Blood is thicker than water so I could never do what I wanted to do (beyond one sneaky and short-lived kiss in a stairwell), but damn Jacob was cute. .. I did quite fancy the idea of a holiday romance at the time, and do still :)

Arms

The email Aaron sent me confirmed which tattoo I'm going to get first. I don't generally believe in signs, but what he wrote to me made me think.


'this too shall pass' will be on my arm in January. Jessee is coming with me to slap the nervousness out of me and hold my (other) hand so I don't run from the shop.

I wonder whether living on ice cubes is viable.

I am so fat and utterly disgusting that I don't even know where to begin.

Ugh.

Probably the loveliest email I've ever received.

"hey Gab,

keep your eyes on the prize. life can be shit sometimes and things can get you down but they do pass.

you dont need some drop kick to show you attention to feel loved and special, you are special to a lot of people. we love you. you don't need others to fluff your self esteem, just look at the person you are and who you want to become.

you are an awesome woman... and a great social worker. don't let anyone (including yourself) tell you otherwise.

you are fearfully and wonderfully made."

Breathe, breathe, breathe.

Give him the flick. He's a semi-douche.

I'm completely aware

That I'm digging a huge hole for myself. I've spent a fuckload of cash I don't have. I've put placement on hold for a week. I've not done my essay. I've sat on the couch all day - sans even showering - just watching DVDs. I seriously haven't left the couch except to go to the bathroom or the fridge.

I know exactly what I am doing. I just don't know how to stop.

Who would've thunk it!

I'm pretty far beyond disappointed/hurt by your actions, man.

Paranoia!